Breast cancer does not mean a woman is saintly, strong, self-sacrificing, or even wise. It does not mean her political views are right, she is morally superior, or somehow touched with holiness. It means she is sick. Some people with breast cancer sucked ass before the disease, suck ass during the disease, and continue sucking ass if they survive. (I’m sure for some people, I fall into this sucking ass category, and no amount of pink ribbons and poison pumped intravenously will ...

I am a writer.  I’ve always been a writer.  So it is no surprise writing is a balm, in this less than healthy time of life.  I am keeping a diary and will blog it occasionally.  Why?  Because I exist.  At least for now.  I’m here.  And, I am a writer. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Breast Cancer Diary Excerpt Yesterday I went downtown for a fancy MRI, (re...

Found out today. Invasive Ductal Carcinoma (HERS 2 overexpression ER+/PR+).  Big ass word for holy-crap-I’m-41-and-have-two-kids-to-raise! They say it is the “aggressive” type. They say Monday is my first operation. They say I have radiation and chemotherapy in my future. They say I have cancer. But you know what? I say cancer has me .

There I was; lying topless in a cotton gown that opened in the front, staring up at the off white ceiling, wondering how, at 41, I was in such a predicament.  After all, I work out, eat fairly well, take care of myself. The doctor came in, along with the ultrasound tech, and one female chaperone.  (Though I always think its kind of funny when the female chaperone is nineteen, maybe twenty.)  Along with all the medical equipment humming in the background, and the rolling be...

I’m done. Finished. Finito. Two years and gobs of learning later, I now have an MPA beside my name.  But I don’t want to talk about graduate studies, or graduate degrees.  It consumed the last two years of my life and frankly, that is enough. ------------------------- I love Facebook.  Love it.  It allows re-connection with old friends, nurturing new ones, and feels like I am still part of good, but distant friends’, present.  ...

It’s been awhile. I’d like to blame the lapse in blogging on Facebook, school, family, yadda, yadda. But, I don’t want to start out lying. I’ll save that for the end. Life is full. So full sometimes I wonder if the cup is getting smaller, more crowded, less porcelain more plastic. Two more quarters and I am done with this Master’s Degree. So what am I going to do with it? My husband and I discussed this the other night and the conversation went something like this: M...

Snarky-ness ahead.............. Went to see the movie Gamer.   I don't game but this movie rocked the house.  Ok, it was an obvious Matrix/Gladiator rip-off, but so what?  Why fix it if it ain't broke? hahaha.  The music was good, the main character was hunky, and even the gamer was hot.  (Which is exactly why guys go see this movie I'm sure.) The plot is weak, laughable actually...man in prison after being forced to murder b/f, must get out to be with da...

Squeezing an entire quarter into 5 weeks?  Not a good idea.  Especially when the instructor wants you to taste every aspect of a field as broad and wide as Public Works.  It's not just about toilet water ya know. --------------------------- I dreamed last night.  About the past, about three different periods of time in my life, with three different people.  I don't like dreaming about the past.  It's a waste of good dream space.  I'd rather go p...

James D Doss. This man is officially one of my all time favorite authors.   He’s been writing for, well, ever you say?   My most sophisticated and non-grouchy reply…..Have you seen how many books are in the library?   And I swear they seem to add more every day!   At this rate I will be lucky to read them all before I pass on to greener pastures..and yes, I do believe as the lusty, well tanned, powerful, and barely-there loin covered Imhotep, &ldquo...

  Me:  "1 Billion Dollars for STD prevention?  That's stimulus?" Her:  "Well yeah.  Someone needs to get in there (the schools) with bananas and condoms, show those kids how to use them." Me:  "What?" Her:  "Abstinence only doesn't work.  Educators need that money!" Me:  "They already get sex ed, at least at my kid's school.  And what school teaches abstinence only?" Her:  "All of them!" Me:  "How many ...

Gavin turns 6 on the 17th, but we celebrated today. My little man is growing up! The tall kid with me is Hunter, 13. (I really hope this embed video works, if I can't get it to work, I will post a link.)      

I browse. I can spend hours in a book store if provided a comfortable place to sit.  When the days are cold, and life just needs a little break, I like to play Tova's Bookstore Game.  It's free and really gets the mental juices flowing. I open five books at random, from different sections in the store, and read a page or two.  Roughly 10-12 pages total. Then I try and make a story out of it in my mind.  The only rules are:  I can't use...

It's snowing outside.  So quiet, the way it gets when the snow acts as a noise absorber and even the snow plows seem softer, easier on the ears. We are supposed to get 5 to 9 inches tonight, on top of the 5 already on the ground. I'm not complaining though.  At least not yet.  Tomorrow when cabin fever strikes my youngest, after another day out of school, then I'll grump and whine.  Right now though, its purty. -------------------------------- I got a let...