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January 22, 2017 by Tova7
Today, strangely, the need to express the present reality in longer sentences than tweets or Facebook posts, won’t stop gnawing.This is due in part to the division in our country, but also in my personal life over politics. It’s naive to believe our generation, our time, is somehow immune to the divisive nature of politics, the ever escalating rhetoric which inevitably leads to war.  If history shows anything, it shows the human race prospers between war, but ultimately war...
January 1, 2017 by Tova7

I hope the new year fills you with hope.

Resolutions seem so out of date to me, so I pick a word and make it the flag plant for the upcoming year.

There were many words competing for 2017, but this year "faith" won.

Faith is defined as:

1. confidence or trust in a person or thing:faith in another's ability. 2. belief that is not based on proof: He had faith that the hypothesis....
3. belief in God or in the doctrines or teachings of religion:
December 18, 2016 by Tova7
Please God please.  Let me feel it just one. more. time.  It makes me feel alive, important, loved and the white hot glow of euphoria makes all the past hurt, all the horrible mistakes, all the empty hours of breathing seem like part of a cosmic plan that feels so good, is so good, all my suffering was worth it, possibly even divine.

Smack.  Dope.  Mud.  Horse.  Skag.  Junk.


Black tar.  Black pearl.  Brown sugar. Witch hazel. Birdie powder...
December 12, 2016 by Tova7
I can post articles, but for some reason I can't comment on any articles including my own. 

I tried Google Chrome, and Internet Explorer.  Any suggestions?




December 8, 2016 by Tova7

There are days I am so stressed out, tense and unable to sleep there is only one thing that can actually break through the constant barrage of thoughts and worries.

ASMR, or Autonomous Sensory Meridian Response Videos on Youtube.  It is defined as "usually experienced through a relaxing tingling in the scalp and the back of the neck and can extend into the rest of the body."


Essentially it is audio stimulation of a sort.  Wearing a good set of ear buds you lis...
December 7, 2016 by Tova7
So happy to see Joeuser is still plugging along.


I've missed you!


I loved blogging here and the community.  There was a time in my life when JU really nourished my mind and spirit with community, current event commentary and flame wars!

Then the world changed.  At least my world did a bit.  Facebook, Twitter. Everything distilled to tweets or posts.  Life is busy.  

I co-founded an anti-sex trafficking nonprofi...
November 7, 2012 by Tova7
Edited 11/11/2012 for clarity and because I was really pissed off when I wrote this and it's just not very coherent.

“Blaming the prince of the fools should not blind anyone to the vast confederacy of fools that made him their prince.”

~ Someone in the Czech Republic via a newspaper


I’m disappointed.

Yesterday the morning started out with such hope.  By the time I went to bed last night.  Crash and burn.

Ohio results weren’t in yet...
October 26, 2012 by Tova7
We have several bird houses in our yard.

Every spring baby birds are pushed out of the nest by Mama and Papa Bird.  Papa almost always takes a limb on a near-by tree, Mama on a patio chair.  They chirp to each other, and encouragement to their off-spring, as they watch over the baby bird. 

No matter what changes in the yard, this event takes place every year.  For a couple years, an old stray cat hung around.  Mama and Papa pushed the baby out, and more times than...
October 22, 2012 by Tova7
Tonight is the third, and final (thank goodness!) debate.

Usually, I wait until after to review it... but since this is the last one wanted to mix it up a little bit.

I'm curious about three things:

1.  What do you think should be discussed tonight?

2.  Is there something either candidate can say that might make them appear "the winner?"

3.  What the hell are we doing about last month's terrorist attack?  How did that even happen??

I have my own idea...
October 17, 2012 by Tova7
Last night, I didn't hear anything unexpected between the two candidates.

The news maker?  Candy Crowley backing up the president during the debate, and then pulling a mea culpa after.  But personally I wasn't shocked by that.  I think Americans should expect it.  She said before millions BO was right, Romney wrong.  Then AFTER the debate said she erred.  Oops.

Kind of like running a front page story with errors, and putting the correction in the ...
October 4, 2012 by Tova7
I don’t know what you saw last night, or even if you watched, but I saw Mitt Romney bring his A game to a debate.  The president however, seemed discombobulated.

I predict the president will get ugly over the course of the next two debates.  Since he can’t run on his record, he will resort to personal attacks, innuendo, and repeating lies. 

I don’t think the debates matter to Obama-bots.  Those people who vote for him because he’s black, or because of one or two so...
September 21, 2012 by Tova7
I’m writing again, after a two year break.  It’s rough, like starting over.  Ugh.  But, I’m well into a tale of death, revenge, and redemption.  This chapter is a work-in-progress.  Posting it here helps keep me motivated.



Arnica slipped the black 9mm with a leather grip into the battered Nike gym bag. The sound of the zipper ripped through the silence of the motel room. She ha...
September 14, 2012 by Tova7
The summer between 8th and 9th grade I lived at the municipal swimming pool.

One day, some friends and I sat outside the pool on picnic tables. The pool just opened so there were adults outside waiting in line with their kids. A red Camaro, music blasting, loaded with soon-to-be seniors crawled by.

Once, twice, three times.

It wasn’t until all the adults were inside that the Camaro screeched to a stop.

Four boys, men really, approached our group.

More specifically, the boy-m...
July 19, 2012 by Tova7
My youngest first time climbing the big wall..  (He's in blue)



July 7, 2012 by Tova7
How many calories do you need a day?

How many do you really burn?

Do you know?  For sure?

Are those generic calculators on line, the ones with weight, height, age input, accurate?  How can they be for everyone?  Doesn’t activity level count?  Muscle mass?

I am 5’3.6” and weigh 115 pounds.  The on-line calculators say:


And yet when I ate 1422 calories, I was so weak I thought perhaps my cancer returned!  And weight train...